Forty-six and 2

 So I killed a snake today.  IT WAS IN MY HOUSE!!!  It was just chillin' on the rug in front of my door, looking at me, judging me.  Granted it was only 8 inches long, but no, just no.  I was like, TAKE THAT YOU EVIL SPAWN OF SATAN and proceeded to beat it to death with an extension pole that I paint my walls with.

 Going to see Muse tonight and I am bringing my son with me.  He is so excited!  Hopefully we will be able to get close enough to see the band, but I doubt it.  Apparently, people have been lining up since 7:00 this morning.  Fuck that noise.  

 Don't turn away
I pray you've heard
The words I've spoken
Dare to believe
Over one last time
Then I'll let the

Darkness cover me
Deny everything
Slowly walk away
To breathe again
On my own

Carry me away
I need your strength
To get me through this
Dare to believe
Over one last time
Then I'll let the

Darkness cover me
Deny everything
Slowly walk away
To breathe again
On my own

 
I have come curiously close to the end, down.
Beneath my self-indulgent pitiful hole. 
Defeated I, concede and move closer. I may find comfort here. 
I may find peace within the emptiness. 
How pitiful.

It's calling me.

And in my darkest moment, fetal and weeping.
The moon tells me a secret. 
My confidant.
As full and bright as I am, this light is not my own. 
A million light reflections pass over me.
It's source is bright and endless. She resuscitates the hopeless.
Without her we are lifeless satellites drifting.
And as I pull my head out, I am without one doubt.
Don't want to peer down here serving my narcissism
I must crucify the ego before it's far too late.
I pray the light lifts me out before I pine away.
Before I pine away.

So crucify the ego before it's far too late.
To leave behind this place so negative and blind and cynical.
And you will come to find that we are all one mind.
Capable of all that's imagined and all conceivable.
Just let the light touch you and let the words spill through.
Just let them pass right through, bringing out our hope and reason.

Before we pine away. Pine away.
-MJK